Evil.

I've recently found out that I'm pregnant, and along with the excitement of this news I've discovered that I absolutely cannot stand anyone. At all. The only person I want to see is an hour away and will probably punch me in the face and then give me the attention and vent session and sense that I need.

I really should not be allowed around people.

But, we find out if it's a boy or a girl tomorrow :):):)

This is also the first time the Internet has heard this news.

ohhh life.

This summer flew by, I don't know how it happened.

I must have missed it while I was working full time & not having a life.

kill me.

i think i miss BK a little today, it's hard to lose your best friend, we talk sometimes .. but it always ends up in an argument. he used to be the only one there for me so it's hard to not go to him with the big stuff going on in life right now "/ also i was looking at pictures since i'm moving my bedroom so i could just be being nostalgic. why must things be so confusing.

insert witty title here

no idea what my problem is today . i'm feeling evil for no real reason. well, i have a few reasons but i'm just being a drama queen as usuallll . i so wish i could have a summer, it's depressing me. I want summer 2007 back, after my senior year . no school, no job, no worriessss. i had money and fun and did not stress. Now, four years later, i have summer classes & a job & in order to do anything fun it will cost me an arm & a leg just to put gas in my car. BOOOOO on this growing up thing. over it .

missing my bestfrienddddd "/

what a day.

so, today is one of those days again .. i quit life for the day.

woke up, ON TIME ! early actually . got ready . started on my way to school (45 minute drive). gas light comes on. bank account negative AGAIN. got lost. don't know how really, thought i was just making a circle cause i had some time to waste & had to figure out how i was going to handle the gas situation. NO i ended up going on a 20 minute adventure complete with panic attack because i thought for sure i was going to break down & nobody would be able to come get me. so, when i finally realize where i am (about 20 minutes from home), it is 9:20, t-minus ten minutes before class. turned myself right around & drove home. i didn't think i was gonna make it & now i've gotta ask my dad for gas money, which is never a good time .. wish me luck !

not to mention, it's the first day of this class .. COOL !

this is the story of my life. i swear.

xoxoxo

Long Time, No Blog ...

So, lots changed.

no more BK . don't wanna talk about it, i'm happy.
new boy in my life =)
poor .
bachelorette party yesterday.
mother's day today.
doing observations at Holy Cross Elementary School.
summer classes start next week.
wedding in t-minus 2 weeks. EEEEEK !!!
missing BB * got to work with her Friday.
life. is. boring.

blah .

if there are any heavens my mother will - e.e. cummings 
 

if there are any heavens my mother will(all by herself)have
one.  It will not be a pansy heaven nor
a fragile heaven of lilies-of-the-valley but
it will be a heaven of blackred roses

my father will be(deep like a rose
tall like a rose)

standing near my

(swaying over her
silent)
with eyes which are really petals and see

nothing with the face of a poet really which
is a flower and not a face with
hands
which whisper
This is my beloved my 

(suddenly in sunlight

he will bow,

& the whole garden will bow)

he's my favorite. 

Technology ...

Well, I am a complete and total technology addict . I spend half my day on my computer, and when I am away from that, my blackberry does not leave my hand. UNFORTUNATELY for me, as much as I love my technology, I tend to have bad luck/be very clumsy. About 2 ish weeks ago, maybe 3, my blackberry broke! The screen just went blank on one side . I could still make/receive calls and texts, but I couldn't read my text messages all the way. This was quite an inconvenience seeing as I spend 99% of my day texting. So, I had to switch to a MUCH less smart phone that used to be my mom's. No qwerty keyboard, barely any internet service, and just overall slow. Anyway, I was dealing with it because I hadn't had time to get to the store and I really thought I was going to have to pay for a new phone, which being a student with just a part time job is not in the budget.

So, as I'm dealing with the dumbphone, my computer decides that it doesn't want to charge anymore. KILL ME! I JUST bought a new charger in like, October, because mine broke ... and now the new one is deciding to do the same thing. Another lovely inconvenience to my story is the fact that when buying my laptop my father got sucked into the MAC craze .. making the closest store a 45 minute drive from my house, not cool. I have been computer-less for about a week. Now it is killing my facebook addiction, but I'm a student and not being able to see all my files and work on my own computer is completely terrible. My dad's computer is not in a comfortable space and dies easily, plus it's freezing in the office and I can't concentrate. My brother locked himself out of his laptop .. don't ask me how, cause I've got no idea how that happens. And my sister's computer, which is ancient and crashes everyday, is the one I have resorted to using.

I really wish that I did not have the worst luck ever . Now, it's off to work.

xoxox