Crawling & Crying

My mini has been crawling for a week tomorrow. I still keep getting emotional about it. When I see him growing so fast, it makes me cry 

Baby Talk

One of the things I've been tweeting for days is how I've been working on Baby C's sleep schedule. 

I've started trying to cut out the need for rocking, so he's prepared to go back to daycare. 

This is day 3 of me being consistent with it for naps and bedtime and it is going EXTREMELY well. I am so proud of us both. 

Letting him cry it out was very hard, but the cry time is much less now. When he starts getting sleepy, we snuggle a little, I take him to his room, turn on his music, and into the crib with a kiss he goes. 

I'm so happy it's working. I also knew it was time to begin this because he started getting very mean during our normal sleep routine. Trying to jump out of my arms, hitting, pulling hair, & head butting ! It was getting a bit rough ! Thankfully we are making great progress and I no longer give in and pick him up. Go me! 

Just in case anyone ever follows me

Who am I ? 

I am ... 

• freshly 24 years old. 

• recent college grad, January 2013 :)

• a new, proud momma, also January 2013 * 

• a temporary stay at home mom, supported by my loving parents while I search for a teaching job. 

• learning to be independent since my fiancé decided he was going to bail on baby & I. 

• a big sister to a 20 & 18 year old. 

• a god momma to a beautiful four year old. 

• a best friend, to four of the most supportive girls I have ever met. 

• a bit of a hot mess who enjoys a bottle of wine after baby goes to bed. 

• a girl who is trying to figure out the difference between lonely & being alone. 

• a not girlfriend who is catching feelings for someone I keep pushing away. 

• a high strung, control freak. 

• a person full of pent up anger towards "the others" as I like to refer to my son's father's family. 

• a new mom trying to find a comfort zone in this new lifestyle & balance my beautiful baby boy with a professional, personal, and social life. 

This is my place to write the things I may not be allowed to say in any other form. I tend to be misunderstood sometimes or get repercussions from voicing my opinion. I also get mixed opinions from others when I express myself, and I'm tired of that. So here I go taking another shot at this blogging thing. 

xox *

Mom life

I tweet daily about everything my child does. I'm gonna start posting it here cause I'm pretty sure my followers don't care. 

He's just so wonderful I feel the need to tell the world :) 

He is 7 months old & just started crawling, as well as just got his third tooth. Time is flying & I'm trying to enjoy every single second ! 

Stupid Girl

I'm tired of people telling me what I deserve. If I deserve it, why hasn't it happened yet ?

I also don't think I deserve all the things they say I do.

Why did I have to get myself so confused. I was doing completely fine on my own, then I had to go & like a boy again.

Stupid girl.

Basically just making my life more unbelievably complicated than I should.

I need to be alone forever until I get my shit together.

I should not drag a completely wonderful, kind person into this hot mess that is my life.

Fuck.

Evil.

I've recently found out that I'm pregnant, and along with the excitement of this news I've discovered that I absolutely cannot stand anyone. At all. The only person I want to see is an hour away and will probably punch me in the face and then give me the attention and vent session and sense that I need.

I really should not be allowed around people.

But, we find out if it's a boy or a girl tomorrow :):):)

This is also the first time the Internet has heard this news.